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[11 Sep 2002|03:36pm] |
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"Who do you Love Now?" ~Danni Minogue |
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My family members makes me angrier than any one else can!!! I can't stand Brett he is so selfish!!! I just asked if I could take the X-BOX with me when I go to Brandon's house this afternoon and he was like no and I was like well I'll take it while you are at school and you know what that little bastard did, hid the cord to plug it up... he wants to play little games, oh I'll play! To bad I helped pay for part of it and he gets to play with it the entire time I'm away at school. I bend over backwards for Brett (my whole family does) to make sure he is doing alright, and he just runs over everyone!!! He's so ungreatful and nasty!!! I was waiting for dad to come home with the car so I could leave but they need some stupid bolts for the Elcamino. I just need to get away from here. I'm really ready to go to school! And I talked to Dani last night and I thought she wasn't going to come back but she got it worked out and she moved into an apartment. It was the only way she could get down there in time for school. So I have a new part house!! I worry about that girl... Me-han and Tay did Marisa tell you guys that B.B.Mak is going to be at Coffee Underground this weekend!? Oh Heather, I was thinking about you because I saw your sister at the mall, and I pretended that I was very interested at the chinese ladies handing out free samples in the food court! I was like poor Heather! I thought oooo, yummy honey chicken and what you have to put up with!?...
I just got off the phone with my mother and she said that she is coming home tomorrow and that I couldn't go to Brandon's... fuck her! And the she proceeded to get into it with me on the phone, and she put all these words in my mouth that I didn't want to live at home, and that I hate dad (which I really do), and that if I had a car at school I would run up to see Brandon. She hasn't been here, she has no right to say anything. I was all excited to write in my live jouranl, now I just want to go, far away!
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| The messenger |
[01 Sep 2002|12:58am] |
it'll haunt you for the rest of your life
numb
that's so much better
all cut up
just another pill
just go ahead and say yes
I couldn't take it anymore
with nobody there
unusual
peaceful
almost erie
you know I would want to be out of here but it's peaceful here
can't seem to focus
I'm the one who is strong
just destroy yourself
I wish it could all be better
I miss you
I love you
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| Sailor Moon... that's me!!! |
[10 Jul 2002|06:02pm] |
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I just wanted to use my new icon that's all! I have this crazy feeling in my tummy, all the time. Like there is something that I should be doing... But hello everyone, I forget that you can comment on peoples journals, and I just got the ones that Courtney and Heather left me... sorry! I'm not being a snob I just don't know what the hell I'm doing! I hope everyone is having a fun summer as much as I am, har har! But I'm going to get some fun beads with Mo, C-ya! xoxo!
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| Lilo and Stitch!!! |
[20 Jun 2002|03:59pm] |
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It comes out tomorrow!!! I can't wait!!!
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| I can smell your Ya-Ya from here! |
[20 Jun 2002|03:19pm] |
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I can't Blue Monday out of my Head! |
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Ya-Ya Sisterhood Title
I love that movie!!!
I got my Ya-Ya Title(there are a couple though because it makes a difference if you put your name in capitals or lower case!):
~Dutchess Serious-as-a-Heart Attack
~Empress Running Mascara
~Marchioness I Need the Ring First
~Princess Works-like-a-Dog
~Viscountess Praying Mantis
~Marchioness Sings like a Bird
~Princess Weeping River
~Countess Raspberry Zinger
~Empress Rising Sun
... I think they all are fitting, I like de last one the best!!!
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| Selah... |
[18 Jun 2002|09:19pm] |
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I can't Blue Monday out of my head |
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I'm ready to go back to school, or at least work! I need to get away from my damn family. I was suppose to go to Ashley R's like a couple of hours ago but Brett is running around probably fuckin Amanda, but yet there are 2 other cars sitting in our back yard. I don't even know why we bought Kaylin's car because it has just sat there since we got it... My family shits on my all the time, if anyone does something seriously it's my fault. Or they take whatever is wrong out on me! I should plop on all there heads. They do it because they can, but I'm glad they feel so highly of me, "Oh Bradley, that's just it, you are so secure with yourself, we only do it to get your response"... I need a smokey treat that's for sure! Jebahz! I miss Mo, I wish she didn't have to go to school right now! BUT, I'm really excited to go up there this weekend and party till I can't stand up any longer. Brandon needs to tone down his partying a little, calling me incoherent every time. I'm excited about going to the beach too!!! I'm actually semi-happy with the way I look! I've been busting my ass to do it too! Amanda just read what I wrote about her and Brett and she wacked me up side the head! Nosey, I don't care though! It's probably the truth! I made up Brett's away message today while he was running around, and I must say I cracked myself up, making it sound poetic and deep! OH my good lord, he had the audacity to say that I always borrow his shit and he never borrows anything, the baby was just kissing mom's ass to get what he wants!... Hopefully I'll go see Spirit: STALLION OF THE SEMERON!! with Meg sometime soon! OH and Lilo and Stitch comes out Friday! Wooo-hoo!
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| Emotionally Cramped |
[12 Jun 2002|07:00pm] |
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The songs from the cd I made for Mo on her trip! |
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...I've been meaning to write forever, but theres no real point because these things don't really matter. It's not a journal, it's a conversation telling people the truth about how you really feel about them or situations without having to get shit for it because you said it in your "journal!" It's Chicken's way out, using the computer as a shield! I try always to speak the truth (that's why I'm "mean"), so I don't need to write in this! Plus the only person who probably reads these things is Marisa, and she knows pretty damn well how I feel about people and situations... But she's not here and she's the only person I really have, it makes me sad but I wouldn't have it any other way! I hope she's having fun in New York, I'm there in spirit!... I'm ready to get away from this place. I'm trapped here under my parents control and authority. I'm nineteen, and my parents still get mad at me if I'm not home when they are. What you want me to be home and sit around with you a listen to either one of bicker about how much you can't stand one another or how much money we don't have. I'm aware... Grow the fuck up, get some dick or some balls, a divorce, or something, stop tormenting with your bad decisions... I'm ready to go back to my life, I guess my temporary life in Savannah! I haven't talked to my friends since I've been back in "Simpleville," I miss them! I should e-mail them, it'll just be hard though... I thought I was happy, I was mistaken. I feel the build-up behind my eyes, they've been there for a while, but I thought they started to subside! It was all an illusion... I made all A's this Semester, the devil and his roulette made me guess, I guessed right, and I still lost. No congratulations, just prick on the shoulder for his triumph... why can't things be the way there were, where we were all oblivious to the cloud of deception that shrouded our eyes from the end of the rainbow that isn't even there. Rainbows are circles, ironic isn't it. Chasing yourself in a viscious circle. I guess I'll just keep chasing...
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| O H M Y L O R D ! ! ! |
[02 May 2002|01:50pm] |
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What the hell, I hate computers, the one time I finally get a chance to write in my live journal and I lose the window I typed it all in, it was really really long too! Whatever I'll do it again sometime... time now to go lay out by the pool and bake!
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| Figuring it out!? |
[14 Apr 2002|02:20pm] |
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Just trying to get things up and running, and figured out!?
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